In my childhood family, expressing emotions was bad. My father shamed anyone who cried, treated it as a weakness. When my mother cried, she would leave the room to gather her composure. My mother was embarrassed by any display of emotion: don't clap too loudly or dance in public, and never ever cheer out loud to show support at an event. Neither parent expressed love or showed affection, so that too seemed like a bad thing. I was desperate to please my parents, so constantl